Dilemma
Sometimes I get so caught up in the everyday drama of my life that I forget that I chose this.
I don’t mean I wanted go through it like this, for example, I have to start over from scratch from the nasty break up from marriage and living single back again.
But in a sense, yes!
I believe my soul chose this life, with my wonderful and sometimes wacky family.
Along with my challenges, extensive strengths, shortcomings, and that I’m here to learn something. Sometimes I have a sense of what I’m supposed to learn and other times I’m just bumping along, hoping to just learn how not to repeat the choices I’ve made that led to painful consequences.
That is life and it’s a fun-filled journey, all of us have got free ticket for this ride.
When I remember, “Oh yeah, some part of me as in my soul actually chose this, wanted to go through this challenge to have the growth experience of overcoming it".
It hasn’t been easy,it’s still difficult to let go sometimes.
I’ve had to grieve the loss and tease out the parts of my dreams that I can hold on to, and those I have to surrender.
I still get to keep the essence of the dream, but I know it won’t look like I thought it would.
I’m choosing to believe it will look even better than I thought, .
Trying to hold on is painful, it’s impossible to succeed and it’s painful.
The pain for me manifests physically, and I’ve been dealing with some extreme physical pains lately an indication that the letting go is a process, and I’m still working on allowing it.
It gave me a broader perspective, and with that distance, a little relief.
I remember that while individual choices matter in that they will lead to consequences of one sort or another, it’s all good.
I can’t make big mistakes for my own life knowledge.
Unpredictable journey of my own life just over turned and am in a dilemma.
I am alive and moving on....
I don’t mean I wanted go through it like this, for example, I have to start over from scratch from the nasty break up from marriage and living single back again.
But in a sense, yes!
I believe my soul chose this life, with my wonderful and sometimes wacky family.
Along with my challenges, extensive strengths, shortcomings, and that I’m here to learn something. Sometimes I have a sense of what I’m supposed to learn and other times I’m just bumping along, hoping to just learn how not to repeat the choices I’ve made that led to painful consequences.
That is life and it’s a fun-filled journey, all of us have got free ticket for this ride.
When I remember, “Oh yeah, some part of me as in my soul actually chose this, wanted to go through this challenge to have the growth experience of overcoming it".
It hasn’t been easy,it’s still difficult to let go sometimes.
I’ve had to grieve the loss and tease out the parts of my dreams that I can hold on to, and those I have to surrender.
I still get to keep the essence of the dream, but I know it won’t look like I thought it would.
I’m choosing to believe it will look even better than I thought, .
Trying to hold on is painful, it’s impossible to succeed and it’s painful.
The pain for me manifests physically, and I’ve been dealing with some extreme physical pains lately an indication that the letting go is a process, and I’m still working on allowing it.
It gave me a broader perspective, and with that distance, a little relief.
I remember that while individual choices matter in that they will lead to consequences of one sort or another, it’s all good.
I can’t make big mistakes for my own life knowledge.
Unpredictable journey of my own life just over turned and am in a dilemma.
I am alive and moving on....
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