D' Musing Thoughts...

I have realize recently I am incapable to make my own decisions. Even for small matters.I might be old enough to face life, but every minute there's a big decision involved in my life, I would think for myself first , can I do it or do I want it ? Is it possible, if I could make the decision for myself or do I need someone to help me out? I’m bad in making decisions though ,I always look out for someone to consult. I don't know why I do this, but I think it's because I may be afraid that if I make a wrong decision, I'll either be disappointed plus I'm afraid I will make my loved ones disappointed with me.Then I'll kick myself for it or there will be bad consequences for making the wrong decision. Is there something wrong with me?

My mum was the Hitler of my life, very strict indeed. However, when I was little, "I'm gonna tell your mom" was the scariest sentence ever I could imagine. It shivers in me until my mum consults me when someone reports to her. There goes my day of my smile. Indian strict mothers are difficult to manage but I’m sure not about other mother :D ! There are flexible mother’s but not to any extend and there is isn’t much difference. My mum and I were always like cats and dogs, even now. We never got along very much as we have different views in thoughts either not agreeable by both parties. She is someone who taught me a lot about handling tough life, so I know she never would be wrong always. She has gone through a lot of tough times in her life and she is one of the successful woman that inspires me. She has achieved and still achieving. Sometimes it’s worth to see those few seconds of the smile on her face and I have tried my best to get that on her but I failed most of the...

I cannot stay away from my blogging. Perpetually every day I tend to write something. Words just run through my thought. After I have posted one and I have a habit to visit my blog quite a few times and read what I have written. It may sound awkward but I guess that is what my blog does to me. I have added my blog link on my iPhone and also I have the Blogger app which helps me to stay connected with my blog when I’m away from my computer. Hope I would have more followers on my blog if someone finds it interesting :p . Well, I would say it's interesting if not why wouldn't I visit it frequently :D As I write this, many thoughts run into my mind and makes me wonder why and where to start and what to write...

I am human no doubt, maybe a human in my own world.I lead a quiet life at time a lonely one too. Alright, that sounds a little too much for lonely though, but I am busy with just life itself. My friends have been asking me out to hangout but I ignore their invites most of the times. I forget to stay in touch with my friends. I am bad that way for time management and people management. I tend to keep in touch with friends further away than the ones who live all over world but I neglect those near me. I do text or facebook my friends to see what is going on. Sometimes I get response, sometimes I don’t and sometimes I wonder if ever my messages went missing in the cyberspace black hole of some sort. Sometimes I wonder and think to myself my question is this again, we are all guilty of this .How could someone to miss me, yet forget to get in touch with me when I did. Can someone be missed and forgotten at the same time? Guess so it could be …… Well I think we all have to admit when it’s ...

Life is about losing and finding happiness, Life is about trusting my feeling and taking chances, Life is about appreciating the memories and learning from the pain, Life is about realizing that people always change, Life is about commitment towards everything I have, Life is about myself and yourself others are not your life, Life is easy to create but difficult to live in, The only thing constant about life is “Life Changes”

Sometimes I wonder did some changes take place in our thoughts. Adults/Elders nowadays behave like kids where else the kids behave more matured. Kids are capable to correct elder’s mistakes or wrongs. Kids developed in general knowledge compare to the adults. If it is not the school educations, the TV programs do teach the children a lot. Besides just looking at the disadvantage of the children’s programs and there is advantages in there. A good funny joke ; My uncle reasonly visited his mother and this cat came by and sat beside him. He told his daughter that the cat is pregnant so she could be careful in handling it. Instead, she just told him that is a “Male” cat and it’s not pregnant. Ok! The kid won a point and the adult lost a point. So what happened here, kids are smart. Aren’t they? “ Hmmm!   I do not think I would have been able to differenciate between male and female at that age of seven.

Having a teacher as your parent. Hahaha! My life was difficult with my mom as she was a teacher and my life was  gated till I open walk thru that gate.My mom is a teacher and she still rules in the hosue.When I was young it was difficult as everyone knows my mom since living in a small town, everyone knows everybody. Teacher ! Teacher ! she had her share of respect and pride in that community that was revolving around her.( am not just talking about the indian community , I mean all of them ) They know her very well and everyone will look forward of what is happening with all her school students and also her own kids. I had bad times growing up in this community as they always did compare their children;s achievement with us (me and brothers).There was competition among the kids and proud parents kept on comparing always.They had some inferity complex attitude, because they always thought teacher’s children will excel well in studies.But ti was a nightmare for us as we had to ...