D' Musing Thoughts...

Hi Friend, As we grow older everything changes around us. I know how you feel when you cribe within yourself. Sometimes the feel of someone we need to talk or cry over. Now things are not same, if a single women cries no one is there to wipe her tears. The only ones are mothers she can expect.  I have had many turning points in my life, so much that I hated everything around and started to ask questions to myself....why is that so? The answer is same...people change...everything else changes but am still the same. Sometimes we cant accept the facts of life....our ego...feelings....thoughts....cannot be changed. I have learnt to look at things differently indeed I have learnt to let go.I have learnt not to hold on to something very close veey long either. I am 36 now and my mom is 62. I only realize and getting closer with her now. Eventhough she and I always argue or never get along because of our differences in thoughts and opinions. She is a woman with a will power and still...

In conjunction with  Shantanand festival of Arts, by Temple of Fine Arts which collaborated together during our 60th National Day for this year celebrating Independence through arts. "Under the Kayon Tree" was an original composition with some elements of dances and theatre narrated by Shantini Venugopal. The theatre musical show unfolds about the Malaysian legends and folktales of Parameswara, Hang Tuah, Hang Li Po, and Mahsuri in this spectacular performances. The Legends came to life under the compositions by an award-winning composer Jyotsna Nithyanandan on an enchanted Sunday evening. Ankur, as what Jyotsna described in her interview was a word from Sanskrit meaning "sprout". The seeds have cultured in various languages, cultures, traditions, and ethics into a strong tree with a beautiful truly Malaysians. We all came from different seeds but we all grew into one big tree and we stay as one true Malaysian. I've not been to any of the Temple of F...

The woman I don’t know in myself… I could be a woman who wears with her the heart on her sleeves, or a woman who chooses very carefully about who I love. I could be the woman who is absolutely free with who she is, or a woman who is always on guard with whom she shares her thoughts with. I could also be the woman who chooses a career over a man or a woman who always puts herself first ahead of anything else in life. Whoever I am, whatever I do, one thing is for certain, I am powerful, indestructible, determined, passionate in whatever I do. However, I choose to live my life, a strong woman doesn’t let her past define her, she doesn’t let her present define her either. Instead she defines her future. I don’t let the life change me. I am a strong tree that doesn’t let any storms to up root and damage my strength. I may resilient through trials and triumphs of life, but I would never let it shift of whom I am. I am made of the toughest of time, and yet I still stand tall a...

Being single is nothing to be fear off, unlikely it’s like a peaceful life I would say. It’s mostly about loving myself and letting myself know that I am truly not alone. It’s time I can get connected to myself and my soul, to find the self-hidden within myself. Being single doesn’t mean I am a social misfit! If anything, that indicates I am single, I am truly dedicated to my personal growth – figuring out exactly who I am before coupling up for a long haul. I am incredibly happy just by the way who I am and this time to celebrate “I” above all. So, what does make me happy, whether just that am sitting on my couch and watching my favourite new addiction Games of Thornes in repeating all seasons or taking a drive to catch the sunsets in evening. This is my life, and my life only as I am old enough to make my decisions I am 36 for god sake. Forget all the silly dating rules which never happens to me as I didn’t make any efforts either, what it means to be “talking” to someo...

I am proud to drape saree around me as it is my traditional wear. I just love sarees, the vibrant colours, designs and different feel of textures. Did you know, the Saree carry their own tales since they were weaved and designed. If only Sarees can talk obviously they could tell their stories and the richness that is held in them. There is an art to wear saree and also there is an art to carry yourself while wearing a saree. The Saree doesn't choose the size of your body, but has it's draped around your body that is what makes the Saree to stand out. Draping the 6 yard length material around you with some pleats here and there itself is a ancient old profound design. A 6 yard that is not stitched, no zips , nor buttons or hook but just a long cloths full of richness of itself. My grandmother wore saree on her whole life. I remember seeing my grandmother emerging after her bath having already changed into her inner long skirt known as "pavadai" and wears a random...

Inking your skin, not many would like that idea of it. The general word is known as TATTOO! I finally decided to ink my skin, something I have been waiting for sometime and very soon I am going to get one. Once it's done will post on the after inking episode. Now is the pre-inking episode in creating the design. Let me see what I can think off, I want a lotus represents calm and peace. From my back to the shoulder. I share the idea with one of my friend and she told me to go for it, as it would be sexy. Frowning my eyes, sexy...hmmmm!!!! I have never thought a tattoo could be sexy! But anyways am gonna get one soon, I have to finalize on the design as it's gonna be a lifetime mark on my skin. I will post once a design has been confirmed.

Do you know Saree is one of the oldest and perhaps the only surviving non stitched material from the past.Though, over the century Saree fashion has also evolved to more sensuous, glamourous all time wear for Indian women. Through centuries have passed since the Saree was conceived as the Indian's woman's hereditary costume. Saree has a unique charm, extra-ordinary beautiful feminine attire suited to all ages of girls, ladies and woman. Saree are actually weaved, But in this new decade of technology, designing Saree has evolved too from traditional weaving to machine made.But though, it does not hold the history as what the older method holds. Today, the history of Saree is lost. The original old weaving of Saree acquired unique names of the places where it was created. Desiging Saree is very intrigued method of the motifs, designs, hand painted, detailed work, and colours. There are variety of handloomed specially carries a story with them. Sarees, there are many ty...

No matter how much we have gone through the toughest life problems or situations in some instances but we'd love to believe we are progressive and modern. Though our patriarchal mindset still look at a woman of a marriageable age as a commodity which needs to be tied down. I think this happens in all religion who are still sitting inside the tiny box of life. I was having a conversation with my aunt in US, she was asking about my life and as we were talking, we ended up talking about traditions, beliefs and believes.Tradition are set up to benefit the male species, so why would rock that boat but now the traditions have long gone...but still some people are sticking on to it, beliefs are different, but some superstitious beliefs and traditions need to change though. Don't let anyone dictate what your life should be, what you do in your life is how you create your life story so others can read, but they do not have the rights to amend it for you unless they give a piece o...

Practicality of me and my senses. Hmmm.....inevitable me! I have not been writing constantly for this whole year, whatever I have posted on each every month were just a scheduled post randomly to post itself on that very date and time. I think, I should keep a flow of writing on and let me see if I could at least write 2 posts a month if possible as my mind could think off. When I write and think of writing, I spend more time of thinking back at different experiences I've had in my life. Can be any sort of something in my life, not necessarily always the negative part but the positive.  Alright, my mind and brain will work together tremendously which never happened during the days I needed to do my thesis or project nor to study to get my degree, these failed me very badly to work together though when I needed them desperately. So my writing is getting better as my both mind and brains are active, and when I start to think in part by part scenes on how to get a st...

Life has thought me so much about my life itself. Living my life as I wish would be the last wish I can make in my life though. Why? Because, my life is being shared to many and by many in my family. So, if I want to make a decision, I can't make it by myself without anyone consent. But, why again ? This is how I have grew, growing up in a big family with grandparents, uncles, aunties, cousins and than parents. Some may say it is so orthodox, but family bonding is the best and only thing we Hindu's/Indian/Tamilans were thought about. I am a Hindu born, grew up learning Tamil as my mother tongue and what they teach us is that "Matha(Mother), Pitha(Father), Guru(Teacher) & Deivam(God) are the highest souls to be respected. Parents are my guardian, teacher thought  me to know the world better with my parents guidance and God as the protector who has guided the light of life for me. Life is a lesson to everyone and has thought many lessons too. Life, indeed ...